It really sucks when you completely open yourself up to another person, where you let them break through the wall you’ve worked so hard to construct. You share all your past, your mistakes, your dreams with them, hoping for them to be a part of your future. And maybe they have done the same with you. Maybe the two of you have thought the same about each other. Maybe their words reached out to you and made you think that you guys really would last forever. But the harsh reality is feelings are only temporary, the beginnings are always the greatest but the ending, you can never expect. Once you open yourself up to someone, you’re giving them a part of you, a part for them to take along once they leave and a part that will leave you incomplete, broken. And that’s what always gets me, I’ve given away too much of myself to get back.
Even though there are times when we’re quiet. just knowing that you’re there on the other line is enough for me. And when we do talk, I can’t help but smile, even if our conversation isn’t about anything funny. I love hearing your voice and I love knowing that you’re willing to take time out of your day just to talk to me.
Her feelings aren’t a joke. If you know she likes you more than a friend then treat her the way you see her. If you see her as a friend, then be a friend. If you see her more than a friend then do something about it. But if you just want to play around because she’s “easy”, and get her hopes up for something that will never happen, then that’s low of you. She’s not a game, neither are her feelings for you.
Why is this so fucking relevant right now.